Something is Missing...

For the first time since we started our adoption journey in July, I feel like something is missing, or someone is missing. It feels like our family is incomplete, not exactly like it does when our college guys are not at home...something more. How can I feel like I am missing someone I don't even know yet? But I do, and they are precious to me, they are mine.
As I observe in the breath-taking beauty that is the autumn season-my favorite, I am ever aware of the here and now and the not yet in so many ways. I praise you Lord for creating a heart in me that leaps this time of year. The coolness in the air, the beauty in the colors I love, the evidence of God's glory in the majestic trees, the fragrance, caramel apples, apple pies, hot spiced tea, hoodies, sweaters and cute boots, chili, getting cozy on the couch with my favorite throw, football, fall festibals(as Annie used to say), chocolate chip pumpkin muffins...all of it.
Just one thing is missing...well maybe two.